Reorganized the order of the exercises in my routine, added two, upped the reps, and changed weights on some of them. HUGE DIFFERENCE. I feel satisfied now. That was a damn good workout.
Monday, April 4, 2016
Saturday, April 2, 2016
New and Improved!
...er, sort of. I know it's been a while, but what happened to my background?! Bah humbug.
Anyhow, here I am. Major changes have been set into motion in my life, and though the origins were painful, I'm grateful to them. I've finally, truly been forced to confront things clearly in my life, and to admit consciously that I'm just not happy with my life at the moment. I'm going in a new direction in regards to my business too, and I'm recommitting to losing weight again. Only this time it's different- I've put more of a mental emphasis on it. I've had to practically lobotomize myself to get myself in the right frame of mind, but it's really clicking now. I'm finally drinking enough water, I'm attacking my relationship with food (tonight was really fucking hard, and I didn't do so well, but I'm still just starting out, here) and I'm back to lifting weights again. Except OH SURPRISE SURPRISE, third time I've started a weight routine, and third time I've immediately come down with a cold. The first two times, this knocked me off course. This time, I'm staying put. Apparently, the changes in your body reach as far as the immune system once you start working out- something about antibodies, blah blah I don't really remember what my fella said. But, I've lost two pounds, an inch off my waist, a half inch off my arms, a half inch off my hips, and a half inch off my calves after just three workouts, and getting stricter about what I eat. I'm not giving up this time. I've got a weekly progress tracker I drew up, and I've got a sweet little rewards can I painted in hot pink and black- it says FUCK FAT on one side and DON'T QUIT on the other. Every pound lost gets a penny, and every workout gets a nickel, though I should probably up it to ten cents a workout and a quarter a pound. I was just really short on change when I came up with those numbers, haha. I've got a secret Pinterest board up too, that only I can see, since it has nothing to do with yarn or knitting or my business, and it too is called FUCK FAT. I've also got a linen bracelet made of my own recycled yarn on my wrist, with five beads on it, each bead representing two inches I want to take off my waist. I'm going to get back into cardio too- I'll be going on long walks again, and I'm gonna add jumping rope this time. Just have to get a new mp3 player- going out is no fun without music on! All that aside, I'm still 14 pounds down from my highest weight.
My relationship with food is a passionate one, but it needs to change. I fucking love fruits and veggies, and I don't crave sweets or fried foods for the most part. I don't keep crappy food around, period, so I can't eat it. But... every Saturday, is Chinese food, and every Sunday is some local place or other now, and every Friday is Chipotle burritos... I've finally found a non guilt inducing Chinese dish (not on the diet menu- their diet options are revolllttinnnggggguhhhh) but my problem now is how to stop eating BEFORE I'm painfully full. I yell at my older cat when she eats too much, too fast, and winds up puking it up everywhere, but I do the same thing- minus the puking. What a hypocrite I am, eh? It's harder for me though, because the food keeps getting pushed in front of me, and if the food is there, I'M GONNA WANT TO FUCKING EAT IT. I wish my fella didn't love shitty food so much.
I've been knitting up a storm lately, on SKIRTS. I'm really excited to be able to wear them when I get thinner. Once my gut shrinks, they are gonna look F I N E fiiiiiiine. They're done in linen stitch, in all different yarns- recycled, novelty, etc. One is neon and a pencil skirt with a slit in the back, and one is mostly soft greens and pinks, fitted, until a ruffle at the bottom. And the third, which I'm still working on, is fiery and sparkly and all the colors of autumn, and it's going to be a short a-line. All three are drawstring tops, to allow for the shrinkage of my body. I need to get better about putting projects up on Ravelry. I'm calling them the War and Peace skirts, because I've been mostly listening to the audio book on YouTube as I work on them (all 60 fucking hours of it!). I'm really not sure how I got so sucked into it, because that Tolstoy was a verbose motherfucker, but I'm really into it now, much to my own surprise
In other news, I've decided to learn Russian, just for fun... I've dyed my hair red again, and I've been REALLY into a genre of music lately called Retrowave. It's like 80's action movie music, and I don't know why I'm so fucking into it. Much of it sounds the same. Synthesizers, driving beats, chilly ambiance, not many (if any) lyrics... but it just feels so righteous, and ...sexy? I dunno. It resonates with me for whatever reason.
Ehhhhh, I think that's about it for now, I suppose. Drinking all this water and tea (which I no longer put any sugar in- I cut out all sugar from my tea cold turkey!) is making me pee like I've never fucking peed before. It's especially irritating when I'm trying to fall asleep.
I guess I'll probably update in another few weeks or so, I dunno. I'd like to update more than that, to record progress that the numbers don't show, but we'll see. Peace out!
Anyhow, here I am. Major changes have been set into motion in my life, and though the origins were painful, I'm grateful to them. I've finally, truly been forced to confront things clearly in my life, and to admit consciously that I'm just not happy with my life at the moment. I'm going in a new direction in regards to my business too, and I'm recommitting to losing weight again. Only this time it's different- I've put more of a mental emphasis on it. I've had to practically lobotomize myself to get myself in the right frame of mind, but it's really clicking now. I'm finally drinking enough water, I'm attacking my relationship with food (tonight was really fucking hard, and I didn't do so well, but I'm still just starting out, here) and I'm back to lifting weights again. Except OH SURPRISE SURPRISE, third time I've started a weight routine, and third time I've immediately come down with a cold. The first two times, this knocked me off course. This time, I'm staying put. Apparently, the changes in your body reach as far as the immune system once you start working out- something about antibodies, blah blah I don't really remember what my fella said. But, I've lost two pounds, an inch off my waist, a half inch off my arms, a half inch off my hips, and a half inch off my calves after just three workouts, and getting stricter about what I eat. I'm not giving up this time. I've got a weekly progress tracker I drew up, and I've got a sweet little rewards can I painted in hot pink and black- it says FUCK FAT on one side and DON'T QUIT on the other. Every pound lost gets a penny, and every workout gets a nickel, though I should probably up it to ten cents a workout and a quarter a pound. I was just really short on change when I came up with those numbers, haha. I've got a secret Pinterest board up too, that only I can see, since it has nothing to do with yarn or knitting or my business, and it too is called FUCK FAT. I've also got a linen bracelet made of my own recycled yarn on my wrist, with five beads on it, each bead representing two inches I want to take off my waist. I'm going to get back into cardio too- I'll be going on long walks again, and I'm gonna add jumping rope this time. Just have to get a new mp3 player- going out is no fun without music on! All that aside, I'm still 14 pounds down from my highest weight.
My relationship with food is a passionate one, but it needs to change. I fucking love fruits and veggies, and I don't crave sweets or fried foods for the most part. I don't keep crappy food around, period, so I can't eat it. But... every Saturday, is Chinese food, and every Sunday is some local place or other now, and every Friday is Chipotle burritos... I've finally found a non guilt inducing Chinese dish (not on the diet menu- their diet options are revolllttinnnggggguhhhh) but my problem now is how to stop eating BEFORE I'm painfully full. I yell at my older cat when she eats too much, too fast, and winds up puking it up everywhere, but I do the same thing- minus the puking. What a hypocrite I am, eh? It's harder for me though, because the food keeps getting pushed in front of me, and if the food is there, I'M GONNA WANT TO FUCKING EAT IT. I wish my fella didn't love shitty food so much.
I've been knitting up a storm lately, on SKIRTS. I'm really excited to be able to wear them when I get thinner. Once my gut shrinks, they are gonna look F I N E fiiiiiiine. They're done in linen stitch, in all different yarns- recycled, novelty, etc. One is neon and a pencil skirt with a slit in the back, and one is mostly soft greens and pinks, fitted, until a ruffle at the bottom. And the third, which I'm still working on, is fiery and sparkly and all the colors of autumn, and it's going to be a short a-line. All three are drawstring tops, to allow for the shrinkage of my body. I need to get better about putting projects up on Ravelry. I'm calling them the War and Peace skirts, because I've been mostly listening to the audio book on YouTube as I work on them (all 60 fucking hours of it!). I'm really not sure how I got so sucked into it, because that Tolstoy was a verbose motherfucker, but I'm really into it now, much to my own surprise
In other news, I've decided to learn Russian, just for fun... I've dyed my hair red again, and I've been REALLY into a genre of music lately called Retrowave. It's like 80's action movie music, and I don't know why I'm so fucking into it. Much of it sounds the same. Synthesizers, driving beats, chilly ambiance, not many (if any) lyrics... but it just feels so righteous, and ...sexy? I dunno. It resonates with me for whatever reason.
Ehhhhh, I think that's about it for now, I suppose. Drinking all this water and tea (which I no longer put any sugar in- I cut out all sugar from my tea cold turkey!) is making me pee like I've never fucking peed before. It's especially irritating when I'm trying to fall asleep.
I guess I'll probably update in another few weeks or so, I dunno. I'd like to update more than that, to record progress that the numbers don't show, but we'll see. Peace out!
Tuesday, November 24, 2015
Gray.
I'm so fucking tired right now I can't think of a better title, but it sums up what I've been going through over the past week and a half.
That thing that happened in Paris? Yeah. Completely derailed me. Normally I am not overly affected by such atrocities, as it is human nature for some to destroy. We will never have world peace- even if we could identify every violent psycho/sociopath in the world and eliminate them, millions more are born every day. That's why the best way to work towards peace is to prepare for war. Paris, not being a third world shithole, should never have been subjected to those atrocities. The French government failed not only its own citizens, but the international tourists as well.
Anyhow, the shock of the attack affected me really, really deeply. Only now am I starting to pull myself back together and re-focus myself. I've mentioned before that my creative urges are at their strongest in the face of misery and darkness, and I think it's because I feel the need to create tangible beauty to combat whatever forces of evil have been lurking. So I've had MAJOR castonitis for the last week and a half, but I've made some great stuff. A pair of gray and black striped knee highs, a pair of socks with my first ever afterthought heels, a beautiful hat which is now up in my shop, and another pair of socks that I cast on tonight. I just finished dyeing a whole batch of sock yarn too- well, mostly over dyeing. Only one skein was white. One I had previously dyed and wasn't satisfied with, and the rest just looked like they'd appreciate makeovers. So now they're all gorgeous and lovely and drying, and... I REALLY need to get into Christmas knitting and baby knitting. Holy shitttt. Not gonna panic, just gotta really buckle down and get started. I've got time.
But I really just wanna knit a whole bunch of socks :-(
That thing that happened in Paris? Yeah. Completely derailed me. Normally I am not overly affected by such atrocities, as it is human nature for some to destroy. We will never have world peace- even if we could identify every violent psycho/sociopath in the world and eliminate them, millions more are born every day. That's why the best way to work towards peace is to prepare for war. Paris, not being a third world shithole, should never have been subjected to those atrocities. The French government failed not only its own citizens, but the international tourists as well.
Anyhow, the shock of the attack affected me really, really deeply. Only now am I starting to pull myself back together and re-focus myself. I've mentioned before that my creative urges are at their strongest in the face of misery and darkness, and I think it's because I feel the need to create tangible beauty to combat whatever forces of evil have been lurking. So I've had MAJOR castonitis for the last week and a half, but I've made some great stuff. A pair of gray and black striped knee highs, a pair of socks with my first ever afterthought heels, a beautiful hat which is now up in my shop, and another pair of socks that I cast on tonight. I just finished dyeing a whole batch of sock yarn too- well, mostly over dyeing. Only one skein was white. One I had previously dyed and wasn't satisfied with, and the rest just looked like they'd appreciate makeovers. So now they're all gorgeous and lovely and drying, and... I REALLY need to get into Christmas knitting and baby knitting. Holy shitttt. Not gonna panic, just gotta really buckle down and get started. I've got time.
But I really just wanna knit a whole bunch of socks :-(
Thursday, November 12, 2015
Knittin' Like a Sock Star!
Awww yeeeahhh, who learned how to knit toe up, 2 at a time socks on magic loop? With a new to me heel? THIS BITCH.
Never mind the fact that I've only ever knit top down, one at a time socks on dpns, with heel flaps and picking up stitches and that whole shebang. And that I haven't knit socks in years. Nope, I went whole hog into this. I'm currently just past the heels (short row heels) now and I'm gonna knit until I run out of yarn. I LOVE magic loop. This is so fucking cool! And... the yarn I'm using fucking sparkles. I'm all about them twinkle toes. I can't wait to wear them!
I'm getting ready to film episode two of the podcast on Friday. Gotta gather my subjects together, and my show and tell stuff, and re-paint my nails. I don't want to brag or anything, but um, I've already made $.06 on YouTube. But I promise, even if I shoot into the stratosphere and make a whole dollar, that I will remain humble. I won't forget my roots ;-)
Ok, this was a short update. I'm gonna knit a little more and then head to bed. I've got to head out to the post office tomorrow to ship out another order. I really need to look into buying packaging online, paying $1.99 for a cardboard box is pretty stupid. Especially when their boxes are always too big anyway. Peace out!
Never mind the fact that I've only ever knit top down, one at a time socks on dpns, with heel flaps and picking up stitches and that whole shebang. And that I haven't knit socks in years. Nope, I went whole hog into this. I'm currently just past the heels (short row heels) now and I'm gonna knit until I run out of yarn. I LOVE magic loop. This is so fucking cool! And... the yarn I'm using fucking sparkles. I'm all about them twinkle toes. I can't wait to wear them!
I'm getting ready to film episode two of the podcast on Friday. Gotta gather my subjects together, and my show and tell stuff, and re-paint my nails. I don't want to brag or anything, but um, I've already made $.06 on YouTube. But I promise, even if I shoot into the stratosphere and make a whole dollar, that I will remain humble. I won't forget my roots ;-)
Ok, this was a short update. I'm gonna knit a little more and then head to bed. I've got to head out to the post office tomorrow to ship out another order. I really need to look into buying packaging online, paying $1.99 for a cardboard box is pretty stupid. Especially when their boxes are always too big anyway. Peace out!
Sunday, November 8, 2015
I Need Caffeine & I Need It NOW!
Goddamn, I've got a mighty powerful, foggy as fuck headache looming. I let work take priority over food today, and now that I've "eaten", it's too late. My body is holding a grudge.
Anyhow, I got a FUCK TON of stuff done, and I'm really proud. Podcast got completed, and took FOREVER to finally get up, but it has a sweet intro and outro and I've earned myself 9 subscribers already! I finished all of the yarn from the last batch, photographed it, and listed it, except for one skein that is still drying and HOLY SHIT THAT ONE SKEIN IN THE SODA ASH, oh dear. I better re dye that one tonight. Oops. This is the third time I'm dyeing it- that yarn really didn't take dye well at all.
I'm currently designing a squishy cowl pattern to go with the squishy neon yarn I can't sell, and it's an absolute delight to work with. The colors, the texture... it's fucking fabulous yarn. \
ok, enough of this headache. I need to go address this now. Later!
Anyhow, I got a FUCK TON of stuff done, and I'm really proud. Podcast got completed, and took FOREVER to finally get up, but it has a sweet intro and outro and I've earned myself 9 subscribers already! I finished all of the yarn from the last batch, photographed it, and listed it, except for one skein that is still drying and HOLY SHIT THAT ONE SKEIN IN THE SODA ASH, oh dear. I better re dye that one tonight. Oops. This is the third time I'm dyeing it- that yarn really didn't take dye well at all.
I'm currently designing a squishy cowl pattern to go with the squishy neon yarn I can't sell, and it's an absolute delight to work with. The colors, the texture... it's fucking fabulous yarn. \
ok, enough of this headache. I need to go address this now. Later!
Friday, November 6, 2015
The Countdown Begins, Eeeeeee!!!!!!!!!
Alright, I've gotten a LOT done this week, including stuff that wasn't on my to-do list because I didn't realize it HAD to be on my to-do list. I even managed to get to the store(s- had to go to three to get all ingredients) and make dinner tonight. I attempted to attend a live webinar on improving one's Etsy sales, but I'll be watching the replay in a bit because we had major internet issues.
I re-created an intro, uploaded 6 videos to my channel so far, monetized said channel, created an AdSense account (still have no idea what the fuck that's for, but one step at a time here. I'll get it eventually), created a cute little trailer for my channel with the help of Groucho, figured out how to get around the mirror image problem on my webcam (thanks, MovieMaker!), have gotten much more experienced with MovieMaker, and I'm confident that tomorrow's filming will be just fine. Aside from my own insecurity about my looks, that is :-P I feel like my mouth looks really weird when I talk. And I'm prone to a double chin. Not to mention those lovely yellow teeth from years of being a smoker! But, hey, it's the content that counts... mostly. I will still aim to be as aesthetically pleasing as I can be, for my own sake.
I am now back on the fence about WordPress. I know now that Blogger is compatible with AdSense, and if I'd like to link the two in the future, I'll need to keep that around. I don't need my own website yet, which is why I had originally thought about switching- I was planning ahead. I think I'll sit tight for a while though.
All I have left to do is set up Free Pattern Friday (which means I'll have to take pictures of the shawl I plan to share, and write up the super easy and quick pattern. I'll have to link it to the pattern that inspired it though, I think) and get together a topic list, in order, as well as gather everything I'll be showing off. And... I need to repaint my nails. Fortunately, I have a manicure in mind- my package from my friend arrived today, and she was MORE than generous, sweet fuck! I am all set for makeup and nails for quite a while. Well, I've been set for nails for a long time now anyway, but now I'm set even more!
So, for ease of reading in the near future when I come back to check shit off:
-Free Pattern Friday
-Topic List/Show and Tell Items
-Manicure
...and I'll be all set! Woo! I can always film before I do Free Pattern Friday. I'd like to get good daylight happening for this, so I'll have to get up a bit earlier than I usually do.
Aw crap, I forgot I have tea steeping. Dang it, I hope it's not too bitter. It's really delicious, a new Celestial Seasonings blend- Watermelon Lime Zinger. Fucking BADASSS.
Ok, off I go to rescue tea and stuff. Bye!
I re-created an intro, uploaded 6 videos to my channel so far, monetized said channel, created an AdSense account (still have no idea what the fuck that's for, but one step at a time here. I'll get it eventually), created a cute little trailer for my channel with the help of Groucho, figured out how to get around the mirror image problem on my webcam (thanks, MovieMaker!), have gotten much more experienced with MovieMaker, and I'm confident that tomorrow's filming will be just fine. Aside from my own insecurity about my looks, that is :-P I feel like my mouth looks really weird when I talk. And I'm prone to a double chin. Not to mention those lovely yellow teeth from years of being a smoker! But, hey, it's the content that counts... mostly. I will still aim to be as aesthetically pleasing as I can be, for my own sake.
I am now back on the fence about WordPress. I know now that Blogger is compatible with AdSense, and if I'd like to link the two in the future, I'll need to keep that around. I don't need my own website yet, which is why I had originally thought about switching- I was planning ahead. I think I'll sit tight for a while though.
All I have left to do is set up Free Pattern Friday (which means I'll have to take pictures of the shawl I plan to share, and write up the super easy and quick pattern. I'll have to link it to the pattern that inspired it though, I think) and get together a topic list, in order, as well as gather everything I'll be showing off. And... I need to repaint my nails. Fortunately, I have a manicure in mind- my package from my friend arrived today, and she was MORE than generous, sweet fuck! I am all set for makeup and nails for quite a while. Well, I've been set for nails for a long time now anyway, but now I'm set even more!
So, for ease of reading in the near future when I come back to check shit off:
-Free Pattern Friday
-Topic List/Show and Tell Items
-Manicure
...and I'll be all set! Woo! I can always film before I do Free Pattern Friday. I'd like to get good daylight happening for this, so I'll have to get up a bit earlier than I usually do.
Aw crap, I forgot I have tea steeping. Dang it, I hope it's not too bitter. It's really delicious, a new Celestial Seasonings blend- Watermelon Lime Zinger. Fucking BADASSS.
Ok, off I go to rescue tea and stuff. Bye!
Wednesday, November 4, 2015
Ha!
Remember that time I was all like, "I'm not gonna forget the caveat in my intro graphics!"
Yeah, that was a good time.
But! I do have both intro and outro finished. And I'm sure I can just edit the intro.
Then again, I was ALSO sure I could just add my animated cat gif into the intro, and that did not work out AT ALL. When trying to figure out how to make it work, seemed to reach a dead end. Eventually, I will get that sucker in there. But, for all intents and purposes as of right now, both are done, minus the warning. I'm especially proud of the outro... it includes a cute little four line poem that incorporates the phrase, "on fleek." WHO'S GANGSTA NOW?!
...I think I was gonna say something else, and I forget. You see, there's a FUCKING MOSQUITO HERE. IN MY LIVING ROOM. AT 3:51 AM ON NOVEMBER 4TH, 20FUCKING15.
'scuse me, I've got murder to commit now.
Yeah, that was a good time.
But! I do have both intro and outro finished. And I'm sure I can just edit the intro.
Then again, I was ALSO sure I could just add my animated cat gif into the intro, and that did not work out AT ALL. When trying to figure out how to make it work, seemed to reach a dead end. Eventually, I will get that sucker in there. But, for all intents and purposes as of right now, both are done, minus the warning. I'm especially proud of the outro... it includes a cute little four line poem that incorporates the phrase, "on fleek." WHO'S GANGSTA NOW?!
...I think I was gonna say something else, and I forget. You see, there's a FUCKING MOSQUITO HERE. IN MY LIVING ROOM. AT 3:51 AM ON NOVEMBER 4TH, 20FUCKING15.
'scuse me, I've got murder to commit now.
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